Time Capsule- One Year Old

This blog was forged as a way to document my experience as a Mom, but also as a time capsule that I hope Sadie can look back on one day. That being said, today’s post highlights Sadie’s life at one year old (and almost a month in).

Prior to being Sadie’s Mom, I didn’t really like babies. I thought of them as giant, personality-less blobs. Would way rather play with a dog than a baby :)-

But now that I own one of these blobs, I am truly amazed by what Sadie can do/loves/can say/is learning at 12 months.

Without further ado, here are some highlights of one-year-old Sadie.

Her favorite things to do are:

  • Putting on and taking off her collection of 15 different plastic necklaces
  • Putting on and taking off her collection of hats
  • Putting on and taking off her collection of shoes
  • Climbing into and out of any box she can find (her rolling wagon, milk crates, diaper boxes, camping coolers, her old Baby Box)
  • Watching people walk by our house out her open window and saying ‘Hed-Do!’ (Hello) to them just as they’re out of view so they have to look around and wonder who said that
  • Presenting her plastic bath toy animals to you and making you put them all in a new spot in the room so that she can go get them and make you hide them all again
  • Pulling off her socks and shoes while she’s in the stroller and wiggling her naked toes in the air
  • Pulling down her shirt and pointing to her boobies and then looking expectantly at you to do the same (one day she wore a really stretchy shirt and spent all day pulling it down and admiring her chest; it launched a habit)
  • Pulling up her shirt and looking at her bellybutton and then looking expectantly at you to do the same
  • Lining up all of her toiletry products from her diaper change table in her windowsill and making you say the product names (gets particularly excited about sunscreen and makes fake grunting noises when trying to pick up the too-heavy Vaseline jar)
  • Practicing her letter sounds with foam letters in the bath (every sound is ‘AAAAAA’, apparently)
  • Giving pinecones to Mom and Dad on the front lawn as presents (each parent gets an equal amount of pinecones; very equitable with the sharing)
  • Pretending to pulverize pinecones in her little hands (paired with grunting noise for emphasis)
  • Passing you every single stuffed animal in her crib to name as soon as she wakes up (there are 7 of them)
  • Opening up her board books to certain pages that she likes and then sitting on them
  • Climbing up her learning tower like a spider monkey and then screaming excitedly as she tries to topple herself over in it
  • Driving her wheeled wagon into walls and then saying ‘Hep’ when she’s stuck against a wall somewhere (doesn’t know how to reverse it yet)
  • Pointing at birds out her bedroom window and saying ‘Bur’
  • Seeing birds from within her stroller and cawing at them
  • Seeing dogs from within her stroller and barking at them
  • Flushing the toilet while Mommy is still using it
  • Singing ‘THUN-DER’ (it sounds more like DUN-DER) when Daddy or I sing the intro to ‘Thunderstruck’ (pretty funny party trick)

That’s what I can think of for now. She surprises me every day, my little blob, with how funny and entertaining she is. I can’t wait to read this blog post back to her one day and have a laugh.

For now, though, thank YOU for reading this summation of who my little person is at this moment. We haven’t gotten out too much these days with Covid, so now you have a better idea what Sadie has been up to these days from afar. She is most definitely Not a blob!

XO, Em

Today I Did Nothing

Today, I did Nothing.

I did not sell a car, or win a case in court, or meet any deadline, or close a big deal, or offer someone a service.

I did not go to work.

In fact, aside from a dog walk and some light gardening, I barely left my house.

If I had to guess, I would estimate that I watched about 8 full hours of Law and Order today.

I want to feel guilty about all of that- I really do. I Hate TV-watching, especially during the daytime, and Especially on a nice summer day. My dog walk was short, and I made really garbage food choices. I could have gone on a run. I could have eaten the kale salad in my fridge instead of Kraft Dinner and handfuls of chocolate chips from the bag. I could have been more social. I could have been more productive.

But aside from the brief dog walk we went on, I had my baby girl in my arms or on my lap All Day Long.

I told myself when we went back to bed together after her morning bottle at 6:30 this morning that we wouldn’t sleep in.

I told myself when we woke up at 9:00 am that I would only watch one episode of Law and Order with her in my arms while she took her 10:00 am bottle.

But as we were still snuggled into each other on the couch, and on our second episode of Law and Order, I was texting with a fellow Mom about the absolute freedom of mat leave. She was saying how, in retrospect, she would have spent her mat leave time so much differently. More snuggle time, less focus on productivity.

I was holding a sleeping Sadie in the crook of my arm as we texted, and I told the friend that it had just hit me a little while ago that soon there will be more months on the other side of my going-back-to-work clock than there are now. In two weeks, Sadie will be 5 months old.

I have NO freaking clue where the time has gone, and I know that as she learns more skills, time will only seem faster.

She’s already sitting up by herself, she’s already pre-crawling. She’s learning to roll over and can already roll herself halfway. Every time I practice more of these skills with her, I cheer and say “You’re Doing It!! Yayyy!!” But I know that with each skill she gains, she is going to want to get further away from me.

Whether it’s crawling down the hall or eventually riding a bike, all the things I want her to learn are things that separate us, and that’s okay.

But for now, while she still wants nothing more than to stare into my eyes and be nestled into my arms, I’m going to snuggle the crap out of her. Even if it means summer days spent almost entirely on the couch.

I was watching her sleeping face today as the afternoon sun shone through our living room window. I looked at her white-blonde hairs jutting straight up from the top of her head, glowing golden in the sunlight. I looked at the sun shining through her tiny ear, making it look coral pink and warm, the little blonde hairs around her earlobe fuzzy like a peach. I watched her eyes flit back and forth under her eyelids, lost in a dream somewhere. She made a frightened peep and looked scared for a moment in her dream. I took her pudgy hand, wrapped its little fingers in mine and comforted her- her asleep, and me awake, drinking all of her in.

I knew in that moment that it doesn’t matter where she goes in this life, or how far away from me she gets. My love for her will never know any bounds, and she will always know where her home is.

I’m so excited for crawling Sadie, and for walking Sadie, and for bike-riding Sadie, and for grown-up and traveling the world Sadie.

But for now, while I still have snuggling Sadie, I’m going to pull her in close to me and take every moment that I can.

I did Nothing today- and yet, I did Everything.

XO, Em