Unpopular opinion:
Sometimes I Hate Parenting.
This isn’t to say I don’t love my children.
This isn’t to say I want them gone.
I do not.
I love them dearly.
They bring me great joy and fill my life with purpose and laughter.
But sometimes- sometimes it fucking sucks.
I Don’t want to watch another episode of Unicorn Academy.
I Don’t want to fold another pair of little pants.
I Don’t want to wrestle an alligator into a diaper every morning before work.
Sometimes, I Don’t want to parent.
I want to lay on my couch and read a book.
I want to go to hot yoga after work like I used to.
I want to randomly go out with some friends for wings.
I want to listen to my own songs in my own car, with no mini-DJ in the back shouting out requests.
I want to see my partner again, not just swap duties and pass over children into waiting arms.
I want to feel like Myself. Me. Not Just a Mom.
I called my Dad today and bitched about a million tiny things.
Half an hour in, I blurted out ‘I just want to be Young and Skinny and FREE again!’
Working full time. Raising two humans. Keeping a house. Feeding people non-stop. Clothing people. Trying to maintain Any iota of a social life or a fitness routine. Kids getting sick. All the friggin time.
It’s just a lot.
Sometimes I hate parenting.
And on days like today I feel great shame. I don’t know who to tell.
Who will not judge me for being ungrateful.
My children are wonderful little people. They’re pretty darn well-behaved. They’re loving. They’re healthy. My husband is a gem. I’m lucky. I’m so, so lucky.
But surely someone else feels this way?
Or is this just something we’re not supposed to talk about?
EM-Powered Mama 
Girl! You are not alone. I don’t think there is a single mom out there who wishes to not be a mom for a day or more at a time. I tell you, with two young ones under 5 is kind of the hardest because they are both so dependent on you. It wasn’t until NK turned 13 and Ck 10 that things got a bit easier with them. William is 9 now and I can leave him at home with his brothers and shoot off to the grocery store or play an hour of tennis and have that taste of freedom. Your responsibilities won’t get easier but they will change and a little bit more of Emily will be able to come through. And the older they get, the more Emily you will get to remember and know because there is more to you that will discover about yourself. Hang in there, this is just another phase in your life.
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I love you. Thank you. It’s so comforting to hear a Mama of 4 say that it gets easier. I’m excited to see what I do/who I become once Lulu is 3 years older. xoxo
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The greatest thing I hated about parenting is the times where you have to be the parent to the other parents. Thinking about it still makes my eyes cross and roll back in my head. The best thing about parenting is when all the little nuggets of simplistic wisdom come spurting out of their little mouths and those wisdoms have made your day so much better. ❤️
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Ooh! Tell me more about parenting other parents!
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You definitely are not alone. I feel this alot. It’s definitely not an easy job. My kids are 17, 14, 8 and 2 step kids 10 and 7. It’s a never ending battle. Hang in there momma. It’s ok too feel this.
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Thank you! Just reading the words “It’s ok to feel this” is like a balm to my soul. Thank You!
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